Time-Travel

Enjoy !

2011-06-10T15:27:00.001+07:00

You know,

We never know how long this happiness will lasts,

what we should do is enjoy it while it lasts.

Thank You

2011-05-16T13:15:00.001+07:00

I just wanna say thank you for this bouquet of flower. :)

Birthday Blast

2011-05-16T13:05:00.003+07:00

This is a late posting about my birthday. It was on 19th April 2011. I should be very grateful cause I got a lot of surprises from best friends, my PPS friends ( i'm really surprised! :D ) and family. Thanks for the birthday cakes, flower, gifts, and all birthday wishes.

How lucky i am to have you all in my life :)

i love to share this happiness with my family.

A friend of mine, gave me this, thank you.

Thankies dear my PPS friends.

I was so Happy.

What You Hate is Sometimes What You Get.

2011-05-15T04:06:00.004+07:00

Now, i'm working at an owned-state bank in Indonesia with trainee status still on my ID card. Honestly, i never like anything about economy, or accounting, or money market, trading or whatever it is. When i was in high school, my economy and accounting lesson got bad grade. I really hate that lesson! Really really sick of it. But now, look, i have to learn more about that things, and will get used to know about all of it.

It's hard for me.

I'm not interested.

It's so difficult to understand.

You know, even i almost never read news about economy or finance.

So, why did you choose to work at a bank?

Because the prosperity? the prestige? the salary?

All of them. I think other people have the same reason.

I realize now, you're not always get what you like.

Cause what you hate is sometimes what you get.

All you have to do is start to learn to like it.

Survive.

You can do it.

Too Sweet

2011-05-01T07:57:00.001+07:00

Love is so funny when you get hurt and you're starting to laugh
just standing alone now figuring why everything was going so fast
and all you've wanted was someone and love will take care for the rest
like I can do...like I want to...for so long...

Love is a puzzle and all you need is someone just to figure it out
don't look away babe cause u know I always be willing to try
I'll wait you right here babe cause I know that baby I'm not fooling around
baby I want you...just only you...for so long

Baby, I know what you feel and I'm so inspired
honey, if you let me with you I'll fix you right
So Right....
We might as well go on together
cause baby I can love you better
if you realize

I know that you're sad babe and all you need is love but love was not easy to find
don't look far now cause you know I always be waiting in front
I'll always be here even though I know you always left me behind
Baby I want you...just only you...for so long

I want to love, hold, give you all the care that you need
relax baby when you're with me cause I'll be the one who holds you tight
tonight, baby when we're together, this feeling will take you further and you'll be alright...

------music for sale - so right------

This song is too sweet. But i know, i miss that feeling, i miss that time, i miss that moment. Am i ready to fall in love again ?

You're Not Alone

2011-01-21T22:05:00.000+07:00

Hey you, you're not alone. I promise. You can count on me.

Smile, cause it looks good on you. Okay ? :)

My Longest Holiday

2011-01-16T03:12:00.001+07:00

I was in Bali from 27th November 2010 'till 28th December 2010. Oh wow, that was my longest holiday ever!

Yup, my sister and her family took my mom and me to follow her stay in Bali for a month. OF COURSE, I was so excited. After struggling for final project, finally I got my holiday! Yippikayey. :D

And what can I say ? Yes baby, Bali is so BEAUTIFUL and EXOTIC.

These are some interesting places that I visited in Bali :

1. Canggu

Located 20 minutes north of Seminyak along the coast, Canggu has rice fields that come right down to the beach. Its quiet, it was cheap, very local and offers lovely views of rice fields as opposed to cement in Seminyak. People want to rent a luxury villa in the rice fields and be close to the beach, rather than rent a box in a 4-storey hotel. Luckily, my sister has a villa in Canggu, so I can look over the wall of the bathroom and see the rice fields. :D

2. Rock Bar
The Rock Bar, a part of the Ayana Resort located in Jimbaran, is literally served straight up on the rocks, with the Bali waves crashing against them. The Rock Bar truly leaves a lasting impression and it’s one of the best places in Bali to view the beautiful sunset! What makes it unique is the outdoor elevator that takes you down onto the rocks. Cool, right ?

3. Kumala Beach
This white-sandy beach is located at the very edge of Legian Beach. Only a short walk from nearby shops and restaurants while Kuta centre is less than 10 minutes drive away. Yes, it's one of the best places to relish the calming sunset.

4. Jimbaran Beach and Seafood Restaurant
Jimbaran is known as the seafood capital of Bali with literally hundreds of seafood restaurants located right on the beach. I think Pandan Sari Cafe Seafood Reastaurant is recommended, because they present you an authentic ingredients and the fish is grilled on fresh condition. This is also a wonderful place to watch the sunset.

5. Swimming Pool Area @ Hard Rock Hotel
The biggest swimming pool in Kuta. There's the pool bar, beach volleyball and surf lessons on the sand island surrounding the pool. Impressive!

6. Tanah Lot
The temple of Tanah Lot stands on a rocky island just off the southwest coast of Bali. One of Bali's most sacred sea temples, Tanah Lot is dedicated to the guardian spirits of the sea. The temple itself is not accessible to visitors, but magnificent views can be had from a variety of points nearby. Naturally, there are plenty of souvenir shops and cafes with a view to keep you well-supplied while doing so, hehe.

7. Bedugul
Bedugul is a tourist area that offers several tourist objects that can be visited such as Bedugul Botanical Gardens, strawberry garden, big lake, and natural attractions such as Treetop. So cold in this place, like in Puncak Pas. :)

8. Tanjung Benoa
Tanjung Benoa, located in north of Nusa Dua, is the almost exclusive home of luxury hotels, private villas, fine restaurants, open-air cafes and water sports facilities. The shape of the beach, makes Tanjung Benoa perfect for water sports like snorkeling, diving, windsurfing, water skiing, powerboats, banana boats , donut boats, and reef fishing. You should try the donut boat, it's soooooooooo fun! :)

9. Ubud
Ubud is he best place to use as a base if you're visiting Bali; if you're looking for culture, comfort, nature and inspiration. Ubud is surrounded by most of the things that bring people to Bali like scenic rice fields, small villages, art and craft communities, ancient temples, palaces, rivers, cheap accommodation and unique luxury hotels. Neighbouring villages are well known for unique bamboo crafts and furniture, wood and stone carving and many other crafts. Bebek Bengil is the famous crispy duck restaurant, so delicious, I tried it before. Yummm.

10. And other places like Mang Engking Sundanese Restaurant, Ayam Taliwang Kuta, Waterbom Kuta, Seminyak Square, Pererenan Beach, Echo Beach, and Bali Deli.

That's why i love Bali, how about you ? ;)

Conceited

2010-11-21T16:33:00.002+07:00

WHY DO PEOPLE LIKE TO ACT CONCEITED ?

Having or showing an excessively high opinion of oneself

Thinking to be superior, better than anybody

I HATE IT

Love Has its Own Time

2010-11-21T15:40:00.005+07:00

How i deal with love is how i deal with myself. If i fall in love with another, and he falls in love with me, but then love chooses to leave, i should not try to reclaim it or to assess blame, let it go. I believe there is a reason and there is a meaning behind it. I will know it in time. All i can do is try to accept it for all its mystery when it comes into my life. Feel the way it fills me to overflowing, then reach out and give it away.

I learn a lot of things from the past. I should say thanks to those who left because they taught me that nothing lasts forever. Now, i am not interested to make a relationship. I just want to live and rule myself alone. Enjoying my time alone. Getting busy with many activities and work. I guess it will be more fun. Even though i know sometimes i need someone to rely on, someone to share stories and ideas, and someone to understand me.

I remember this, and keep it to my heart. Love has its own time, its own seasons, and its own reason for coming and going. I can not bribe it or coerce it, or reason it into saying

Life is in Motion

2010-11-21T14:50:00.002+07:00

Maybe it’s time to look in the mirror, suck it up, and get past the delusion. It’s hard for anyone who is dissatisfied not to blame someone else, and especially the people nearest of all to them.

We’re all moving forward, life is in motion.

You failed, it’s ok.

Try again.

Waiting For A Train

2010-11-11T08:16:00.001+07:00

I am waiting for a train.
But the train is yet to come pick me up.
Will i wait a lonely lifetime ?
If you want me to, i will.

Between Heart and Mind

2010-11-11T00:47:00.002+07:00

Would you go with your mind ? Or would you listen to your heart ? Could you draw the line between heart and mind ? It's so hard to find the balance.

I'm pretty sure that all of us had through this situation. When your mind says "Who cares?", but your heart whispers "Yes, i do". When your mind says "No, i don't want", but your heart tells "Yes, i need it". When your mind says "Let go", but your heart says "Hold on". When your mind says "I'm okay", but your heart shouts "Hey, i feel so bad, don't you see that ?". Why people keep their feeling deep inside and try to hide what they really want to ? Maybe there are some reasons and considerations for their own sake, who knows.

I can feel it too. Just because i ignore some people doesn't mean i don't care. But they will never know if i never show it, right ? I see this thing as a conflict between mind and heart.

So, should we listen to our irrational but happy heart, or our sensible but impersonal mind? The answer is to listen to both. Just try to think the consequences for both sides.

I Hate This Situation

2010-11-10T23:27:00.004+07:00

When you’re eager to reach something you want, but you trapped in the wrong way, what would you do? When you feel very disappointed because you failed, and you know there's no possibilities to get it back, what would you do? Deeply sad. Feeling down. Yes, it’s true.

I had been led on the wrong path. I feel regret but it already happened. I have to try so hard to get everything back to normal even though I know it’s not easy and will take long time. I’m not so sure that everything will be right again.

I always blame myself of this. I also blame them. I blame everyone. I know it means nothing if I always try to regret and blame because life is move forward as it should be. I just feel tired to deal with those things. I’m mad at myself but I can’t do anything. There are still other problems that I have to overcome. Can I have time to let myself happy without those problems? Oh, i wish i can control my time.

Maybe some people will not take it seriously, but for me, it’s different. I realized that everyone has their own patience for how long they can survive and struggle. And I completely know that God will not give us obstacles beyond our ability to handle.

I can’t tell those problems to my friends. It’s just too complicated. I’ve tried this to the closest people but it didn’t help. Even they can’t understand what I feel inside. Or maybe I’m just overreacted.

I don’t know, I’m just tired of being tired.

And I hate this situation.

Life Changing

2010-11-10T21:18:00.004+07:00

The hardest thing to learn in life is let something go. There's time when it has to go, leave you there standing and only staring at it. Even when you're the one who take that decision. To let go a part of your life. You always think that was a perfect decision to make, the best choice you can do to continue your life. You just think about it inside your mind, down to your heart. You think it might be a good lesson to have. The one that makes you more mature because you dare to make a big changes in your life.

But it's NOT.

It's only you thought. How could you say that everything is okay when your heart broken into pieces. How could you pretend nothing happen when it left a big whole in your heart. You might feel okay in 3 day after but next you're not sure what's going to happen. When you wake up and realize there's nothing there.

Your life is not only about you and your feeling. It includes another person feeling and another person life. You are the one who control your life, but you're not lived alone in this world. Trying to let someone or something go may affect your surrounding. You need to think about them as well as yours. Do they agree with your decision or they might be have a second thought.

Because giving up what you really love doesn't mean you're mature enough. It's not a sign that you growing up and accept that life is not only what you want to have. Giving up and letting go are a life changing experience.

Boredom Killer

2010-11-10T01:12:00.002+07:00

Hey, i created some avatars (of me). Check it out.

HAHAHA. This is funny. :D

It's called, Graduation !

2010-11-07T19:47:00.011+07:00

I felt so excited about the G-Day. Yes, it’s Graduation Day. It was October 23rd 2010 @ GSG IT Telkom. I had prepared every single thing, including my turquoise kebaya and booked the beautician for my make-up (cause I’m not good enough to do it by myself). My mom was busy to match what she was going to wear on that day, including the veil. Even my brother asked me about the ‘batik’ shirt that he was going to choose. It’s funny, for me, haha.

At that moment, I didn’t know what to say whether I have to feel happy or sad. So happy because I was inaugurated as a bachelor—Informatics degree. So happy because finally I can make my parents and family proud of me. And again, I was so happy to see my friends shared the happiness with their family too—what a touching moment. Especially when we were waiting our names called to the stage, it must be a pleasure. Oh I forgot, FYI, there were so many cum laude students , I felt little bit ashamed among them. “This is ‘A’ with cum laude predicate, “This is ‘B’ with cum laude predicate”, This is ‘C’ with cum laude predicate, Oh, I’m tired of giving applause, haha. However, I’m proud of them !

If I could see my dad standing right to me. He would give me a hug and say “Congratulation, my dear” . But it’s okay, cause I know you always smile for me. This is for you, Dad. :)

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school? -Vitamin C.

Now, I realized that, wow, I still miss this university. I still miss my friends— housemate, classmate, lab’s crew, (Do I have to mention ex too ? Haha). Really, I still miss to get a college student life again. Staying awake in the middle of the night, chit-chat and laugh about anything (also gossiping), feel free because your mommy not watching you, humppff, miss that moment. :(

However, I should not feel like graduation is the end of everything. It’s just a beginning. I have to prepare for the 'real world', to face the bigger challenges in life.

And about friendship,
These memories are playing like a film without sound. I keep thinking that it’s not goodbye. We will still be friends forever.

My First Set in Polyvore

2010-03-27T19:24:00.008+07:00

Photograph Class by always_cha

Polyvore is a social site that helps you make interactive fashion collages of with product photos and other picts. I like to browse on the internet. For me to spend more than an hour there, a site has to be absolutely AMAZING, and Polyvore is just that.

This website is filled with eye candy. You can make your own outfits with gorgeous designer items, or just show everyone what you're going to wear on Saturday Night. Creating a collage is a simple as dragging and dropping products into your "set". Each group of items (that is called sets) is interactive and by mousing over any one item in the set you can see a short description of it. With Polyvore i can imagine if i am an editor of fashion magz. It's FUN !

Missing Father-Daughter Time

2010-02-25T00:14:00.010+07:00

Dad, i want you to know what i feel. Ive been trying to be the best for you even though i know i can't , just be your good little girl.
Dad, i want you to know my feeling. I miss the times we used to laugh, and i miss your smile. I miss our times, just father-daughter time. I have a nice hug for you, even though is not as warm as yours for me .

I'm just MISSING everything about you. I'm sorry i made so many mistakes. I wish i could make you happy and proud for me ..

i ♥ you, dad ..

I know you're smiling at me from heaven now. :)